Saturday, September 25, 2010

Reconstruction...


responsibility. somethin' that i've not been livin' up to
humility. holdin' ma breath till i be turnin' blue
complexity. somethin' that's goin' on in ma mind
that i can't rewind and can never bring it back to the time
that when it used to be fine and i would not cross the line
between the fact and the fiction, no sign of any affliction
back then, when i was full straight and had them goals in ma mind
when i was able to see and decipher and not just go blind
to the things important and truer than true and true to itself
i guess i've caused maself to slip and i'm just losing maself
in this heat of the matter in which the matter gets worse
and then when worse comes to worst, there goes ma whole universe
and you might think that i stole that verse from Eminem's verse
but it's just a reference, no need for you to go out and curse
i've already got alotta things leading me to that hearse
so enough talk and just stop sending me your 'no loves'
i need to get outta the ditch, from the curse of the evil witch
in which i leave ma past behind and just move on and just stitch
ma present together so that it can be so much better
but by the grace of God only because His grace is the center
the center of existence and the center of life
and i believe His grace is sufficient for me in ma life
and His power perfected in all ma weakness and strife
and through the torments and torrents i believe that i will survive
therefore, i boast not about me but i boast about ma God
who did not spare His only Son nor would He spare the rod
"Oh, Lord! Do as You wish, Your will be done in me
even if You have to reshape and remould, You RECONSTRUCT me!"

Monday, September 6, 2010

prematurely extinguished...

i tried to pen whatever of 'em down...didn't work...damn.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

moving forward indeed...

a new month, a new post. methinks that MONTHLY blogging will be an activity of higher frequency that i will be carrying out in the up and coming days...i mean, months...to come. perhaps with the exception of a few fortnightly posts in between as well. that is, IF i'm capable of slottin' them into ma rather maddening daily schedule.

lethargy. a common sensation that i've been experiencing lately. well, mostly everyday i must say. and to ma surprise and amusement, i have yet to acquire a particular skill that is much sought after among many Pre-U and 1st year college students - time management. i'm quite unable to cope with whatever that's being thrown at me - academically speaking, of course.

emotions. an erupting volcano and a devastating tornado are just a few metaphorical emotional catastrophes which are constantly in brew within me. containable? with much strength from The Divine - yes. alone? - an inevitable meltdown will draw nigh.

however, the above two are experienced and unjustly intensified during usual schooling days. mind you, the holidays are here...besides, i also strongly believe that, ...

"You make all things new
yes, You make all things new
and i will follow You, forward."

Moving Forward, Israel Houghton