claustrophobia...

oh my goodness! why another time in bruises?

how many times i gotta feel so useless?

must this always happen in phases?

need a tranquilizer for calmness

need some honest answers, supporters

anything to correct the wrongness

feeling trapped with walls surround

need some air to get back around

lift me up from above this ground

ma smile has too long been a frown

don't know which way's up or down

i am ma own joke, what a clown!

claustrophobia in ma mind

need some space of ma own this time

if not i'll explode in the scene

maybe not, implode with ma dreams

i don't know when i've been so mean

can't be patient anymore it seems

it seems like i've lost it, it seems

'cause i fail to speak but i SCREAM...

Psalm 51:17 (Just Leave Me Alone...)

shit! here i go again, venting all ma pain again...

gotta get this shit outta ma system before it kills ma brain again

i feel like i wanna throw it in, the towel right into the bin

i can no longer stand it, wanna give up on this road i'm in

there is no point for what i'm doing, i don't see no truth in it

i gave ma explanation but then they want a lot more out of it

how can i give more with that attitude right in front of ma face?

it is mere impossible for me to exercise that grace

i feel like i wanna quit this race

no more pursuing, no more chase

i feel like i don't give a damn anymore about 'eternal place'

oh, LORD! please forgive me, would You? even if i didn't ask You to?

i'm sorry if somehow i'm taking all of my shit out on You

oh, LORD! You know me, You know me, You know from the inside out

there is nothing i can hide from You and that there is no doubt!

so, LORD, won't You just look at me 'cause i'm even ashamed of me

You said You won't despise me!

...i'm broken and contrite within me...

A Legacy of Memories by A.RON & Da Archaize...

Haha! Yo! Check it!

this is goin' out to HM, bet you know who that is

if you don't already know, i'm gonna tell you who is...

...Mdm. Teh Seok Im, she's one in a million

she be shining like stars, y'know stars in trillions...

from up above and she be showing us love

she takes care of welfare of students she loves

who are mainly everybody, she is giving quality

upgrading our school and giving us many facilities

like that new block and everything else on top

she keeps this school running all year, all round the clock

man! you gotta admit! she really did a lot!

so, let's be thankful to GOD for whom that we've got!

and under her, man! kami telah berjaya

menjadi sebuah Sekolah Perdana di Subang Jaya

yeah! without a doubt man, she's like a close friend

to all of 'em teachers, i'm sure you understand

yo! she always has the best intentions in mind

we're like uncut diamonds waiting to be refined

to the very best, above the rest, for success

passion for excellence, that's her quest!

and she leads by example, now that's ample

if you can't handle, she's your sample...
...of iron put into one's soul

she's our principal, with a heart of gold!

leave a legacy...

when one goes up, another gets down

when you rocked a gig, there'll always be more to improve on

i understand that now

leave a legacy, not an empty memory...

take the coal and cleanse ma lips, oh LORD...

5 "Woe to me!" I cried. "I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty."

6 Then one of the seraphs flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with thongs from the altar. 7 With it he touched my mouth and said, "See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for."

Isaiah 6:5-6 (NIV)

Reconstruction...

responsibility. somethin' that i've not been livin' up to

humility. holdin' ma breath till i be turnin' blue

complexity. somethin' that's goin' on in ma mind

that i can't rewind and can never bring it back to the time

that when it used to be fine and i would not cross the line

between the fact and the fiction, no sign of any affliction

back then, when i was full straight and had them goals in ma mind

when i was able to see and decipher and not just go blind

to the things important and truer than true and true to itself

i guess i've caused maself to slip and i'm just losing maself

in this heat of the matter in which the matter gets worse

and then when worse comes to worst, there goes ma whole universe

and you might think that i stole that verse from Eminem's verse

but it's just a reference, no need for you to go out and curse

i've already got alotta things leading me to that hearse

so enough talk and just stop sending me your 'no loves'

i need to get outta the ditch, from the curse of the evil witch

in which i leave ma past behind and just move on and just stitch

ma present together so that it can be so much better

but by the grace of God only because His grace is the center

the center of existence and the center of life

and i believe His grace is sufficient for me in ma life

and His power perfected in all ma weakness and strife

and through the torments and torrents i believe that i will survive

therefore, i boast not about me but i boast about ma God

who did not spare His only Son nor would He spare the rod

"Oh, Lord! Do as You wish, Your will be done in me

even if You have to reshape and remould, You RECONSTRUCT me!"

prematurely extinguished...

i tried to pen whatever of 'em down...didn't work...damn.