QUENCH '10

GOD brought me back around by gettin' me shot down...

THE WORD WHICH WAS SPOKEN FORTH TO ME:

• SESSION 1: get rid of worldly clutter and make space for GOD-ly water.
• SESSION 2: take the cap of pride and ego off.
• SESSION 3: metaphorically & literally - stop performing on stage. WORSHIP HIM!
• SESSION 4: i'm not alone. i'm loved. don't impress the world, all for GOD!
• SESSION 5: GOD sees everything. surrender all. guidance. floodgates opened. joy in the household.

i got quenched, drenched and fixed up with GOD'S wrench. have Your way.

"Have you been quenched, yo?"

City on Our Knees - tobyMac

VERSE

If you gotta start somewhere why not here
If you gotta start sometime why not now
If we gotta start somewhere I say here
If we gotta start sometime I say now
Through the fog there is hope in the distance
From cathedrals to third world missions
Love will fall to the earth like a crashing wave

CHORUS 1
Tonight’s the night
For the sinners and the saints
Two worlds collide in a beautiful display
It’s all up tonight
When we step across the line
We can sail across the sea
To a city with one king
A city on our knees
A city on our knees
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

VERSE

CHORUS 1

BRIDGE
Tonight could last forever
We are one choice from together
Tonight could last forever
Ooh
Tonight could last forever
We are one choice from together
As family
We’re family
Oh Tonight could last forever
We are one choice from together
You and me
Ya, you and me

CHORUS 2
Tonight’s the night

For the sinners and the saints
Two worlds collide
In a glorious display
'Cause its all love tonight
When we step across the line
We can sail across the sea
To a city with one king
A city on our knees
A city on our knees
Oh oh oh
A city on our knees
A city on our knees
Oh oh oh
If we gotta start somewhere why not here
If we gotta start sometime why not now

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lyrics courtesy of http://www.lyricsreg.com/lyrics/tobymac/City+On+Our+Knees/

f*cked up...

itoldmaselfthatiwouldnotcurseinmarapsbutf*uckthat'causewhatispitisallaboutfacts

ain'tsettlingforcrapain'tnousefornotrash,i'lljustblowthisshitupandrewinditandplayback

niceguysendlast?i'mmasplityouinhalf!thenexttimeijumpi'mmamakesureit'ssome

thingthaticanconquerandjustpumpmafistintheairtoreleasealltheshare

ofthatmuthaf*ckingb*tchwhowantedmetobethere...

Inferno...

oh, LORD! i beg of Thee, don't let it be

just because of me, You're gonna burn down the vicinity?

all the other kids screaming and crying in insanity

won't You just get rid of me? let the other kids be

let them roll around and frolic with nothin' to worry about it

i'll just take the weight upon maself 'cause it was me who started

the inferno, made it higher, made it wilder, made it bigger

made it the shit that is today, not really proud about it!

nothin' to hide, what you see is i got

don't ever doubt it, don't question 'cause you know none about it

don't ask me to explain it 'cause then, you still won't get it

this is just a flurry, no need for you to comment it

no need your opinions, don't wanna know what you think

'cause if you don't understand me, go drown in the sink

dip your head in the water or shove your head in the ground

it doesn't really matter, don't really want you around!

claustrophobia...

oh my goodness! why another time in bruises?

how many times i gotta feel so useless?

must this always happen in phases?

need a tranquilizer for calmness

need some honest answers, supporters

anything to correct the wrongness

feeling trapped with walls surround

need some air to get back around

lift me up from above this ground

ma smile has too long been a frown

don't know which way's up or down

i am ma own joke, what a clown!

claustrophobia in ma mind

need some space of ma own this time

if not i'll explode in the scene

maybe not, implode with ma dreams

i don't know when i've been so mean

can't be patient anymore it seems

it seems like i've lost it, it seems

'cause i fail to speak but i SCREAM...

Psalm 51:17 (Just Leave Me Alone...)

shit! here i go again, venting all ma pain again...

gotta get this shit outta ma system before it kills ma brain again

i feel like i wanna throw it in, the towel right into the bin

i can no longer stand it, wanna give up on this road i'm in

there is no point for what i'm doing, i don't see no truth in it

i gave ma explanation but then they want a lot more out of it

how can i give more with that attitude right in front of ma face?

it is mere impossible for me to exercise that grace

i feel like i wanna quit this race

no more pursuing, no more chase

i feel like i don't give a damn anymore about 'eternal place'

oh, LORD! please forgive me, would You? even if i didn't ask You to?

i'm sorry if somehow i'm taking all of my shit out on You

oh, LORD! You know me, You know me, You know from the inside out

there is nothing i can hide from You and that there is no doubt!

so, LORD, won't You just look at me 'cause i'm even ashamed of me

You said You won't despise me!

...i'm broken and contrite within me...

A Legacy of Memories by A.RON & Da Archaize...

Haha! Yo! Check it!

this is goin' out to HM, bet you know who that is

if you don't already know, i'm gonna tell you who is...

...Mdm. Teh Seok Im, she's one in a million

she be shining like stars, y'know stars in trillions...

from up above and she be showing us love

she takes care of welfare of students she loves

who are mainly everybody, she is giving quality

upgrading our school and giving us many facilities

like that new block and everything else on top

she keeps this school running all year, all round the clock

man! you gotta admit! she really did a lot!

so, let's be thankful to GOD for whom that we've got!

and under her, man! kami telah berjaya

menjadi sebuah Sekolah Perdana di Subang Jaya

yeah! without a doubt man, she's like a close friend

to all of 'em teachers, i'm sure you understand

yo! she always has the best intentions in mind

we're like uncut diamonds waiting to be refined

to the very best, above the rest, for success

passion for excellence, that's her quest!

and she leads by example, now that's ample

if you can't handle, she's your sample...
...of iron put into one's soul

she's our principal, with a heart of gold!

leave a legacy...

when one goes up, another gets down

when you rocked a gig, there'll always be more to improve on

i understand that now

leave a legacy, not an empty memory...

take the coal and cleanse ma lips, oh LORD...

5 "Woe to me!" I cried. "I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty."

6 Then one of the seraphs flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with thongs from the altar. 7 With it he touched my mouth and said, "See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for."

Isaiah 6:5-6 (NIV)

Reconstruction...

responsibility. somethin' that i've not been livin' up to

humility. holdin' ma breath till i be turnin' blue

complexity. somethin' that's goin' on in ma mind

that i can't rewind and can never bring it back to the time

that when it used to be fine and i would not cross the line

between the fact and the fiction, no sign of any affliction

back then, when i was full straight and had them goals in ma mind

when i was able to see and decipher and not just go blind

to the things important and truer than true and true to itself

i guess i've caused maself to slip and i'm just losing maself

in this heat of the matter in which the matter gets worse

and then when worse comes to worst, there goes ma whole universe

and you might think that i stole that verse from Eminem's verse

but it's just a reference, no need for you to go out and curse

i've already got alotta things leading me to that hearse

so enough talk and just stop sending me your 'no loves'

i need to get outta the ditch, from the curse of the evil witch

in which i leave ma past behind and just move on and just stitch

ma present together so that it can be so much better

but by the grace of God only because His grace is the center

the center of existence and the center of life

and i believe His grace is sufficient for me in ma life

and His power perfected in all ma weakness and strife

and through the torments and torrents i believe that i will survive

therefore, i boast not about me but i boast about ma God

who did not spare His only Son nor would He spare the rod

"Oh, Lord! Do as You wish, Your will be done in me

even if You have to reshape and remould, You RECONSTRUCT me!"

prematurely extinguished...

i tried to pen whatever of 'em down...didn't work...damn.

moving forward indeed...

a new month, a new post. methinks that MONTHLY blogging will be an activity of higher frequency that i will be carrying out in the up and coming days...i mean, months...to come. perhaps with the exception of a few fortnightly posts in between as well. that is, IF i'm capable of slottin' them into ma rather maddening daily schedule.

lethargy. a common sensation that i've been experiencing lately. well, mostly everyday i must say. and to ma surprise and amusement, i have yet to acquire a particular skill that is much sought after among many Pre-U and 1st year college students - time management. i'm quite unable to cope with whatever that's being thrown at me - academically speaking, of course.

emotions. an erupting volcano and a devastating tornado are just a few metaphorical emotional catastrophes which are constantly in brew within me. containable? with much strength from The Divine - yes. alone? - an inevitable meltdown will draw nigh.

however, the above two are experienced and unjustly intensified during usual schooling days. mind you, the holidays are here...besides, i also strongly believe that, ...

"You make all things new

yes, You make all things new

and i will follow You, forward."

Moving Forward, Israel Houghton

the hands of time...

i heard this story from ma Physics teacher some time ago...however, it most probably must have been yesterday (i think).

a couple of dudes (on an episode of 'How Do They Do It?' on Discovery Channel) embarked on a project to determine the EXACT time of day - regardless of whichever time zone one is in. they conducted an experiment to determine the EXACT time a laser beam takes to travel from a said Point A to another Point B. by knowing THAT time, the EXACT time of day could be determined (according to them, that is). in their calculations, they took into account the seconds, milliseconds and a helluva other shit (forgive ma language). anyway, i came to a rather apt statement after she concluded her little 'story' on the dudes...

"that sure would have taken a lot of time to find the EXACT time in which THAT time found was no longer there at the time as time does not stop in whatever time, hence, a lot of time was probably wasted to find THE time..."

anyway, i guess it's time for me to abandon ma blog for the time being as i have immense weight overflowing from ma shoulders at this time. i will return when the time comes or whenever i feel that the hands of time is more suited to ma time. till that time...

movie wonder...

y'know (well, for those who don't already know...), a movie can do wonders even if it is not a REALLY good one...spent the last 2 hours of ma life watching 'The Sorcerer's Apprentice' at Sunway Pyramid with a couple of ma classmates. the movie wasn't SUPER but it has its plus sides...made me ponder about the many probabilities that may stumble upon us even if we NEVER wished that they could happen. beautiful.

it was just the other day...

it was just the other day...well, yesterday to be precise. it was after ma Maths T tuition and i was waiting at the bus stop when suddenly this caucasian dude, probably in his 50's approached me. he inquired on the direction to where Taipan (a business center of sorts) was. see, we were at SS15 (Subang Jaya area). i explained to him where it was and before i knew it, i was asking about his origins.

the dude's French, living in Asia for a couple of years, no job, no income, no family but still surviving. and obviously, with ma curiosity gettin' the better of me, i popped the question, "how do you get by?" his answer? "well, everyday is a new day. we take it one day at a time..."

we might hear this kinda sayings all the time till it gets old and we become numb to it, however, once we really meet a dude in person who actually LIVES by the said phrase...it changes a lot...

'Space Bound'-inspired...

in the course of 2 weeks in time, i can't believe we just died

but it made me think of the others i've killed in the past and i've tried

to resurrect them but failed, i guess they were outta their time

but i believe that one of 'em is possible to come back and shine

that particular feeling of being like i was dreaming

that anything is possible when you and me were just leaning

on each other's shoulders, we had our backs and one for the other

it's impossible to find another one like the other

and because of that, i gotta accept the fact, but i want you back

it hurts me so bad and it's still able to turn me blue and black

i gotta be patient and just lie in expectation

for that time of a second chance for a better romance...

flip the coin...

no more being dependent, i gotta be independent

if i still got ma two feet, i better go and use it

before somebody abuse it or somehow they misuse it

and i'll be crying over spilled milk, no point to get with

opportunities only come once in awhile to twice

so, you better think fast, set up your mind, make a choice

and then we step up, and then we then step out

and make our voice be heard amidst off all the crowd

we gotta be loud. damn! we bust our lungs out

to prove the damn point instead of flippin' the coin

if you wanna bet your life on them pieces of silver

i got no comment. it's stupid! i'll be tellin' you it's over!

frozen...

trying to maintain ma composure under a helluva pressure

and it's pissing me off, damn, you brushed me off!

can't believe you did it, i'm gonna snap, accept the fact

but i do wished that we get ourselves back on the track

y'know, where we supposed to go, still waiting for you though

i can't board this damn train until you tell me so

so, what about now? the who, the when and the how?

are we ever moving forward or are we just being cowards?

there is no point to go back, although i wished we could do that

and all the memories of the past are frozen to make it last

never to be burnt and never to be turned into ash

but the sad thing in reality, it's gone in a flash

and damn! what the hell? do you see me burning in the crash?

i don't think you give a damn, think you wanted me trashed!

if you're begging to differ, try to speak up a lil' louder

if you really care, show me gurl, i can't decipher...

patience is like a rubber band...

"patience is like a rubber band, it can only be stretched so much before it snaps..."

if i ever come across ANOTHER sorry excuse of a carbon life-form which pops STRAIGHT UP in ma face with that SAME BLOODY RETARDED question, i'mma make sure i'mma bust ITS face SO BAD (if it HAS a face to begin with...) till it won't be able to tell the difference between ITS nose and a bucket full of blood...

i don't give a damn anymore...

and that's what happens when a rubber band snaps...

the time has come...

the word which was brought forth yesterday at Youth Service 2...

14After John was put in prison, Jesus went into Galilee, proclaiming the good news of God. ¹⁵"The time has come," he said. "The kingdom of God is near. Repent and believe the good news!"

Mark 1:14-15 (NIV)

am i a good steward of ma time?? food for thought...

another g'day...

another g'day, this i have to say...too tired to elaborate. gotta wake up early tomorrow. church. leading praise & worship for Youth service. God be with me. AMEN.

the things we do...

a summary of today - in point form.

• woke up around 6.30-ish
• left for school around 7am-ish
• came home from school around 1pm-ish
• left for tuition around 1.45pm-ish
• came home after tuition around 4.20pm-ish
• left home to run some errands around 4.35pm-ish
• met Andrian Tam at school around 6.00pm-ish?
• took some measurements and left for Summit (on foot) to buy a SUPER long extension wire (30 meters) for our appliances (waffle makers) for the School's Carnival Day (tomorrow)
• arrived back at school and set up the wires around 7pm-ish?
• finished at precisely 7.40pm
• waited for Andrian's dad to fetch us home
• arrived back home around 8pm-ish...

the SUPER long wire and the plugs

no description needed (oh, the irony...)

the wire in its rightful place. carefully placed and taped.

the conclusion? a fruitful and well-spent day...looking forward to an exciting carnival in school tomorrow...

"oh, the things we do..."

in the words of Shakespeare...

"To be or not to be– that is the question..."

Hamlet, William Shakespeare

a helluva a lot is at stake...

"no mistake, there is a lot here at stake

trying to balance a helluva a lot of stuff on ma plate

juggling between those books and all of those courses each day

trying to find a time for maself to have a time off today..."

Da Deft

physics test demoralized me today. maths IQ test incinerated ma very being. i still have outstanding maths and physics homework, not forgetting revision of ALL ma subjects which needs to be done before ma first OFFICIAL test in school which will be somewhere between late July and early August. and to top it all off...i have a chemistry test tomorrow...

"oh, what blissful bliss, how i wished to be deceased..."

feeling rather lethargic lately as well. but, the will in me is pounding and it says, 'go on.'

but...what if i can't?

of 'belacan' and life...

now...for those of you who are oblivious to what belacan is, it is actually a Malay word for shrimp paste - an admirable ingredient which is widely used in Southeast Asian and Southern Chinese cuisine. there are also various names given to this shrimp paste and/or shrimp sauce according to the various types of shrimps used to concoct this ingredient. and how do i know all this? the wonders of the Internet *chuckles*.

anyhow, how does belacan apply to life other than making a dish more appetizing? well, for today...the term belacan has been spoken to me twice. first was in the morning and the second was a couple of minutes ago. on both occasions, ma mom uttered the word belacan for countless of times in her sentences.

and the sentence that stuck with me was from this morning actually...she told me one of her many life stories - involving food. it went something like this...

"y'know, the last time there was this man from Melaka who sold very nice belacan. so, i asked Ah Yee (ma mom's youngest sister) to buy it for me." ma mom said.

"but then...someone close to me wanted it so badly. so...i gave it to that person." she elaborated.

"after which, i told Ah Yee and got a scolding from her. 'cause now the man who sold the belacan is dead and it's hard to find another type of belacan with the same great quality and taste anymore." ma mom pointed out matter-of-factly.

"so, next time...don't give away good things. one should keep it to one's self and treasure it...'cause one might not get it again..." she concluded.

with reference to the context, i totally agree with her last statement - "one should keep it to one's self and treasure it...'cause one might not get it again..."

and currently, that is how it applies to ma life...

***

PS. portions of the conversation were altered for reasons pertaining to privacy issues.

Thank You.

of goodbyes & hellos...

wow. can't imagine that it has only been 3 weeks since i entered the world of Pre-U, which in my case is, Form 6 (F6). life is supposedly stress-filled and/or stressful, but i'm not really feelin' it (note the phrase 'not really'). anyway, in the course of those 3 weeks of ma life, many new relationships were built, many retained and many more TO BE built. however, there is this one dude from ma class (i'm in the Physics class, if you're wondering) whom i have NEVER rubbed shoulders with prior to the F6 intake...and suddenly, i have this urge to blog and/or write about him.

to me, he is one cool dude. as i am currently the Class Monitor (4 years running) and he, the Head of Cleanliness of the class (Ketua Kebersihan), i deal with him often to ensure that the class is spick and span throughout the day. and as some of y'all know me, i'm not one of the EASIEST of people to deal with (confession is good for the soul...bad for reputation *chuckles*). but to me, personally, this dude exhibited much composure and patience and didn't blow over..not sayin' that i was pushing him to the edge or anythin' but MOST people who are newly acquainted to me will have a rather weird impression of me - not that i mind or anythin' but it's more of a misconception.

but, i gotta admit...this dude is cool and i'm gonna miss his jokes and especially his antics in class *reminiscing*. he's leaving for Penang to further his studies and today was his last day in school. and i don't really know why but although i've only known him for a couple of weeks, i feel like we're brothers. hahahahahaha. i think F6 is wrecking ma brain. but anyway, yeah.

"All the best! GOD bless!"

and this goes out to, Jivetharman a/l Sekar aka. JEEVAN. keep safe, dude! :)

restoring Mother Nature...

it's been some time since ma previous post, no? well, was rather busy with school work and what not. but i thought of blogging about today. so, here we go...

did a performance in school for the afternoon session peeps. it was during their assembly and it was a substantially good performance *smiles*...collaborated with Eric (Chang Ching Yet) on the beats - first time collaborating with him for anyone who wishes to know. moving on, HE was on the beats whereas, i did a full-blown rap about the environment and how we can overcome and/or reduce climate change, global warming, carbon footprint and etc. why? 'cause it was for a launching of a program in school about the environment and recycling and carbon footprint and...you get the picture, don't you? anyway, here are the lyrics to ma flow i just busted awhile ago...

alright! all ears on me now, aight! yo, yo, yo...check it!

the weather's deranged and it's caused by climate change

so, we gotta make a difference and we gotta make a change

if we wanna save our planet, we better go act upon it

and about pollution? man! we better go stop it!

we gotta 'go green', come clean, you get what i mean?

we better start recycling; overcoming the scene

deforestation is wrecking a lot of havoc on nations

so, it's time to step up, no time to be complacent

about carbon emissions, that is our number 1 mission

by reducing our carbon footprint, we save our generation

reduce global warming, increase our understanding

that with one small step, all the tables are turning

in our favour, and with that, we become our own saviour

no more the need of fussing and grumbling under the weather

'cause we strive to be better, to resecure our future

that is why i say, "we better love Mother Nature!"

melting point...

there's definitely bigger things to be concerned about

i know about it for sure, definitely i don't doubt

so what am i doing here? gettin' stuck and can't get out?

i need the strength from God, man, He gotta pull me out!

from ma misery and pain that i've laid upon maself

didn't wanna go to God, thought i could handle maself

but when things seem bleak and all around, you weak

there's only one you can go to, gotta lay it at His feet

and hope and pray, submit, commit your life today

no more goin' back to how it was, damn ma ways

i gotta start it all over, melt maself into clay

i need the Potter to shape me and mould ma ways

am i serious? i'm curious. am i being delirious?

i don't wanna be a joke, man. it's not hilarious

precarious, it is. as i'll be dealing with God

but actually, i'm the one being dealt by God!

playin' poker in the park...

huh! what? check it!

you gotta brace yourself to break yourself in order to locate yourself

the only way to live is like i said, is just to die to self

but what do you mean by dying? you're dead! so, quit lying!

i mean, get over those feelings in order to quit crying!

so, quit trying if you intend to keep trying

to relive the moments and pretend that you're still flying

but you ain't flying, you're falling, you're sinking, you're crawling

but at least i got ma head intact, it's not gone bawling

but so what if it's not? not like that i forgot

about all that we've been through and all that we've gotten into

although, i wish i did, for now, at this moment

'cause it's tearin' me apart and i feel so broken

but life goes on...as you've heard in any song

but it doesn't hit home sometimes 'cause it's so wrong

so, i gotta play ma cards right, suck it up, hold it tight

one false move and it's the end of the night! aight!

in addition, this is just maybe a premonition

of the things to come, y'know, a premature invasion

a fusion of illusions on emotions of the moments

hallucinations are causing pollution on ma emotions

so, wow! i really gotta get out of it now

there's always a time to fold and just move out of it now

before you step in much deeper, get consumed in the dark

but all this feels unreal like playin' poker in the park...

somethin's gotta give...part II

yo, yo, yo...check it!

alright, enough said, everybody knows what's in ma head

i gotta get this information off ma chest before i'm dead

i don't know why i'm doin' this, already done this before

but i guess the last time, i didn't sweep it outta the door

so, i'm gettin' tormented, demented, cemented in the ground

ma whole world's in a mess, it's upside and down

everything's chaotic, i got no place to lay ma crown

and it's not gettin' better, i'm like a clown with a frown

so, just go! and just let me be

disappear from the Earth takin' your memories with thee

i can't stand it anymore, gonna get a lockjaw

gonna get into a frenzy, killing people with a saw!

i can't believe seeing you is turning me inside - blue

this is not just for one of you, so go get a clue

but obviously for now, one is hurtin' me more

are you avoiding me? man! you are turning me sore

bitter, enraged, like a bird and i'm stuck in a cage

can't get out of this maze, i need wisdom from a sage

but i gotta let go, let God turn the page

i need a miracle...or maybe magic from a mage

y'know, a magic bullet, something that can really healeth

or perhaps relieve me of ma misery i can't endureth

'cause to live is to die and to die is to live

but at the end of it all, i say..." somethin's gotta give..."

scrap...

yo! have you seen another and then wished you were dead?

there's too much of the pain to bear, off with 'cha head

there's too much of the hurt and despair, enough said

man! how i wish to sleep and never got outta bed!

if only i could try to get somebody paid

to put me in ma grave is where i wanna be laid

and all of the anguish, how i wish to extinguish

hire myself an assassin and to me be then vanquished!

misconstrued...

so what if i was misconstrued and you thought it was for you?

it doesn't really make a difference as you knew how i felt

back then, when i told you...about ma life before...

like how i was in pain when i chose to slam that door

closed it shut, for now, somehow and i took ma bow

and i was in anguish and now i'm getting over it, wow

look at it from this way, at least i kinda inspired you

to bring out your words to ease the burdens inside of you

so what if you feel like a dork? couldn't pop open the cork?

misread the lines? got yourself caught up in time?

it doesn't bother me and neither should it get to you

by the way, it was I who misconstrued...

Not Afraid - Eminem

this new track by Eminem for his new 'Recovery' album is indeed uplifting. there's something we can all learn from his experiences. so...

Chorus
I’m not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We’ll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you’re not alone
Holla if you feel like you’ve been down the same road

Intro
Yeah, It’s been a ride…
I guess i had to go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you might still be in that place
If you’re trying to get out, just follow me
I’ll get you there

Verse 1
You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay ‘em
But you won’t take the sting out these words before I say ‘em
Cause ain’t no way I’m let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say ‘em or do something I do it, I don’t give a damn
What you think, I’m doing this for me, so f*ck the world
Feed it beans, it’s gassed up, if it thinks its stopping me
I’mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I’m tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts don’t try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he’s still sh*ttin’ and
Whether he’s on salary, paid hourly
Until he bows out or he sh*t’s his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He’s married to the game, like a f*ck you for Christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he’s got the urge
To pull his d*ck from the dirt and f*ck the whole Universe

Chorus

Verse 2
Ok quit playin’ with the scissors and sh*t, and cut the crap
I shouldn’t have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it’s a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that f*ck your feelings, instead of getting crowned you’re getting capped
And to the fans, I’ll never let you down again, I’m back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let’s be honest, that last Relapse CD was “ehhhh”
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground
Relax, I ain’t going back to that now
All I’m tryna say is get back, click-clack BLAOW
Cause I ain’t playin’ around
There’s a game called circle and I don’t know how
I’m way too up to back down
But I think I’m still tryna figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn’t
This f*cking black cloud’s still follow’s me around
But it’s time to exorcise these demons
These motherf*ckers are doing jumping jacks now!

Chorus

Bridge
And I just can’t keep living this way
So starting today, I’m breaking out of this cage
I’m standing up, Imma face my demons
I’m manning up, Imma hold my ground
I’ve had enough, now I’m so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now

Verse 3
It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly I probably did it subliminally for you
So I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through
And don’t even realise what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they can do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My World, haters can make like bees with no stingers, and drop dead
No more beef flingers, no more drama from now on, I promise
To focus solely on handling my responsibility’s as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and raise it
You couldn’t lift a single shingle on it
Cause the way I feel, I’m strong enough to go to the club
Or the corner pub and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I’m raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I’m too busy gazing at stars, I feel amazing and

Chorus
I’m not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We’ll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you’re not alone
Holla if you feel like you’ve been down the same road
End

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lyrics courtesy of killerhiphop.com